I decide to have a sit down lunch today. It has been at least a couple of weeks since I’ve had a decent burger. I spot the Slug and the Lettuce. They do a decent…
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a day for signs and omens…
When I kissed Ruth goodbye this morning, the position she was laying in reminded me of the the Hanged Man in the Tarot Major Arcana. I had one of those moments of “hmmm, I better…
dispatches 11.07.2010
A new day, another train ride down to London. I was in an optimistic mood this morning. It felt like I had turned a corner and ahead of me the horizon and wide open possibilities for the future. It is exciting.
My book about Pythagorean numerology arrived yesterday. It is written by Glynis McCants, a former stand-up comic and writer. I have dabbled in numerology in the past. I am not sure what has guided me back here, but it fits in with the project I am working on at present. I figured out my Life Path number which is the most important number in the series of numbers that are meant to affect our lives. My Life Path number is 3. Three’s are creatives. I must admit that the description of a 3 Life Path seems uncannily accurate. McCant’s description of a 3 person confirmed what I already knew about myself, which is what some would say makes subjects like numerology and astrology believable because people project themselves into the words, which reflect what you already believe to be true about yourself. I guess it doesn’t matter whether it’s true or not. It only matters if you believe it to be true and find the words helpful in your own personal reflection. I tend to evaluate these things on whether they are useful or not useful. If it’s useful, use it; if not, discard it. In this case, the words are useful and that is enough for me.
On an entirely different note…
Joy, the trolly lady, has stopped speaking to me. I used to buy my coffee from the stand on the platform and the occasional bacon roll from Joy. She gave me a lecture once about how I could save money by buying my coffee and my bacon roll from her. So I did. However, her coffee is not that greatest, plus I was spending a fortune buying coffees. So I decided to make my own coffee and bring it in a thermos. Joy didn’t like this one bit. The first time I brought my own coffee, she gave me a dirty look. The second time she decided she’d flog me the bacon roll anyway. Mostly I say no thanks. But she asks every day. Last Friday I asked her for a bacon roll and she said sorry I don’t have any. Call me paranoid, but I got the feeling she had some bacon rolls, but she wanted to make sure she offered them to her regular customers first. Fair enough, I guess. Monday, I brought my own bacon roll and coffee onboard. And now Joy has fallen out with me completely. Today I didn’t have a coffee or a bacon with me and Joy wasn’t compelled to offer to sell me either. She just looked at me, squinted, and kept on pushing her trolley right past me.
The rest of my day passed without incident. Things were quiet on the work front. The kind of quiet that precedes a storm. These next few weeks will be critical.
At lunch, I decided to wander down streets I had never been, in search of a new place to eat. There were plenty of choices. I settled on a little joint called the Snaxx Cafe. Nothing fancy. The prices were much the same as any place else in London. It was quiet, clean, and had a good view so I decided to stay and enjoy a bacon and egg sandwich.
I am still fighting though a cold I picked up from sitting in iceboxes all day. It boggles my mind that on the train and in the office I work that the air condition is blowing full blast as if it were hot outside. Even stranger, when asked to if the air can be turned off, the reply is “We can’t. There is a summer setting and a winter setting and we can’t turn the air conditioning off until late September.” OK.
I decide to burn the cold out off me by sitting in the steam room and the sauna after work. I find extreme heat often cures me. We’ll see.
“It is our conception of death which decides our answers to all the questions that life puts to us.”
“It is our conception of death which decides our answers to all the questions that life puts to us.”
– Dag Hammarskjold
life is an adventure on paper, but is it in reality?
All life is technically an adventure, a bold, usually risky, undertaking with uncertain outcomes.
However, because most of us live in expectation that everything should turn out just as we want it to, life becomes oddly a function of habit where we live in the immediate future or past, but rarely ever the present.
I notice it in myself. I drive the same route to work in the morning, my expectation being that today’s drive should more or less resemble yesterday’s drive. When something happens that upsets that expectation, an accident, a slow tractor hogging the rode, the immediate reaction is to get annoyed or angry. I take the same train, sit in the same carriage, generally sit in the same seat if no one has beaten me to it. I walk the same route to the office, stop at the same coffee shop, order the same drink (in fact, I do this so habitually that the staff don’t even asked what I want to drink anymore, they automatically start preparing my medium black coffee to go).
Here is were the past creeps in. Because it happened that way yesterday, and the day before that and the day before that, we automatically presumes the same thing will happen again today. But in reality the outcome is uncertain. However, we presume it to be certain and get upset when it doesn’t turn out just as we want it.
In an adventure, the uncertainty of the outcome is what makes it exciting.
Imagine what life would be like if we embraced the uncertainty of life from moment to moment.
I wonder if we slip into presumptions and habits of routine because we cannot take too much excitement? Or do we need to feel certain, even if it is a false certainty just so we can function? Or is it that we can’t break the cycle of our mind either being in the future or the past from one moment to the next?
I thought might be time to get back into sketching…great…
I thought might be time to get back into sketching…great for relaxing and focuses the mind. I sketched this picture of Jonh Lennon on my way home from London late last night.
i’ll see it when i believe it
The visible world is only a construct in your mind. When you see something you are not seeing what is really there. What you are seeing is your visual cortex’s best guess of what is there. Your visual cortex then produces something that nearly resembles the object you believe you are seeing. Most people have, at one time or another, used the phrase: “I’ll believe it when I see it.” in reality it is more likely: “I’ll see it when I believe it.”
Milton Glaser’s Great Rules For Life
Loving this… Ten Things I have Learned Part of AIGA Talk in London, November 22, 2001 Now on www.miltonglaser.com Please check out Milton Glaser’s site here and you can find the original essay here. 1….
“As is the life of the leaves so is that of men. The wind scatters the leaves to the ground: the…”
“As is the life of the leaves so is that of men. The wind scatters the leaves to the ground: the vigorous forest puts forth others, and they grow in the spring season. Soon one generation of men comes another ceases.”
– Homeric passage
a tribute to my mom
GLORIA ANN LOWE… 12/19/1952 – 07/23/2010 “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”…
“Worry is otherwise known as ‘fantasized catastrophizing’ where we create an image of the future and…”
“Worry is otherwise known as ‘fantasized catastrophizing’ where we create an image of the future and use it to frighten ourselves! Be aware that you are doing it, then stop doing it, otherwise the image will become a self fulfilling prophesy. Imagine only the brightest future, and so it will be. Besides there is nothing to worry about… unless you are under the illusion that your well-being and security are dependent on material things. If they are, then you will have many ways in which you can create worry. Possible loss, damage, separation, uncertainty are but a few. Look, you’re killing yourself with worry, all because of the misuse of your imagination. Don’t do it.”
– Innerspace (via bodymindandsoul) (via dysfunctionalhippie)
“When will you begin to live virtuously, Plato asked an old man who was telling him that he was…”
“When will you begin to live virtuously, Plato asked an old man who was telling him that he was attending a series of lectures on virtue. One must not just speculate for ever; one must one day also think about actual practice. But today we think those who live as they teach are dreamers.”
– Immanuel Kant
“If you are distressed by any external thing, it is not this thing which disturbs you, but your own…”
“If you are distressed by any external thing, it is not this thing which disturbs you, but your own judgements about it. And it is in your power to wipe out that judgement now.”
– Marcus Aurelius
“Measure life in loan payments and time quickly runs out; measure life by infinite values and time…”
“Measure life in loan payments and time quickly runs out; measure life by infinite values and time keeps out of the way.”
– Henry David Thoreau
“In the visible world, the Milky Way is a tiny fragment; within this fragment, the solar system is an…”
“In the visible world, the Milky Way is a tiny fragment; within this fragment, the solar system is an infinitesimal speck, and of the speck our planet is a microscopic dot. On this dot, tiny lumps of impure carbon and water, of complicated structure, with somewhat unusual physical and chemical qualities, crawl about for a few years, until they are dissolved again into the elements of which they are compounded.”
– Betrand Russell
time to ponder or ponder time
I’ve been working flat out over the last 3 months or so getting up at 0430 to be out the door by 0545 to catch the 0620 train to London (a journey that takes me…
“We turn clay to make a vase; but it is in the spaces where there is nothing that the usefulness of…”
“We turn clay to make a vase; but it is in the spaces where there is nothing that the usefulness of the vase depends. Just as we take advantage of what is, we should recognize the usefulness of what is not.”
– Lao Tzu
Relaxing on top of penygadir.
Relaxing on top of penygadir.
“The clock is king.”
“The clock is king.”