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at the cross section of narrative alchemy, imaginal psychology, chaos magick, self-development, self-authorship, meaning-making, and conscious living.

Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture
Soulcruzer

Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture

I spent twenty years in corporate learning and development watching people master outcome frameworks while their actual lives drifted sideways. They could build project plans with military precision, cascade objectives down organisational charts, and define KPIs that would make a statistician weep with joy. Then they’d leave the office and

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Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture
Posts

Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture

I spent twenty years in corporate learning and development watching people master outcome frameworks while their actual lives drifted sideways. They could build project plans with military precision, cascade objectives down organisational charts, and define KPIs that would make a statistician weep with joy. Then they’d leave the office and

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Consciousness

What Are We Becoming?

This one started with me sitting down in the studio and noticing a pattern that’s been floating around the last couple of days. Everywhere I turn, people are talking about where we’re going as human beings, what we’re becoming, and how all this change is messing with our sense of

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Consciousness

Seeing the Fnords in the Machine

I just read Michael Rock’s essay “If You Don’t See the Fnord it Can’t Eat You” and it clarified something I’ve been circling around for months. Rock traces the paranoid history of subliminal messaging from Robert Anton Wilson’s Discordian chaos to Madison Avenue’s mind control fantasies. The fnord1 is typography

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A square Instagram post with a high-contrast punk zine aesthetic. The image features the same circuit board forest being consumed by neon glitch fire and the static lizard icon as the podcast cover. Large, distressed text at the bottom reads "THE DIGITAL BURN" in white, with the subtitle "YOU ARE THE FUEL" below it. The entire image has a rough, torn paper and halftone texture, designed to stop scrolling on social media feeds.
Posts

Your Timeline is a Sixth-Generation Forest Fire

Reading Soundtrack: The Prodigy — Firestarter Smoke in the Silicon Close your eyes and feel the laptop on your thighs. It isn’t just warm: it is radiating. That heat is the friction of a billion data points rubbing together in a space too small to hold them. Outside, the world

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Consciousness

Nobody’s Coming to Save You

The Uncomfortable Core of Self-Transformation The Seductive Misreading Someone commented on one of my posts the other day, drawing a parallel between the Left Hand Path and Nietzsche’s philosophy. They talked about the Übermensch, about self-deification, about becoming superior. They weren’t wrong about the surface similarities. Both traditions do emphasize

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Notes

People think I’m repeating myself when I say …

People think I’m repeating myself when I say I’m all about Psyche and Soul. They see a linguistic loop, but I see an alchemical operation. To the dictionary, they are the same word. To the seeker, they are two different sides of the Great Work. The Alchemical Split Psyche is

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There is a quietly subversive move hiding in …

There is a quietly subversive move hiding in plain sight here. This essay by Richard Beard looks like it’s arguing against AI, but the more interesting thing is that it is actually redefining what writing is. Richard Beard is not saying “humans are better writers.” He is saying that memoir

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Find the poetry in the machine. I love …

Find the poetry in the machine. I love this line. It’s the same pattern that’s played out with every tool that threatened to “replace” human creativity. Photography was going to kill painting. Synthesizers were going to kill “real” music. Digital art was going to kill traditional media. But what actually

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Podcast

The Soulcruzer podcast…narrative alchemy in audio form. Call it an audioblog, call it broadcast signal, call it confessional mysticism.

 

One day I’m working through tarot as spiritual technology. The next, I’m exploring Nietzsche’s eternal return as lived practice, chaos magick techniques, or games as containers for transformation. Depth psychology meets the esoteric. Ancient wisdom meets the AI age. Theory becomes practice.

 

This is what narrative alchemy sounds like from the inside: raw, real, unpolished. Experiments in treating stories as code and consciousness as hackable.

If you’re here for the deep work and the edges, subscribe wherever you get your podcasts.

Latest Episode

Latest Games

Magus Eternal

A Solo Tarot RPG

Reality is unraveling. You are a Chaos Magician caught in an arcane war against time itself. Your rival’s forbidden ritual threatens to shatter existence. You have 13 days to master chaos, confront the abyss, and decide the fate of reality. Every card drawn rewrites destiny. Every spell cast demands sacrifice. Will you save this world, or become the architect of its undoing?

The Threshold

A Mini-Game of Narrative Alchemy

New to narrative solo RPG games? Play The Threshold. This is a short 15-minute game with huge outcomes.

 

You stand at a threshold between two rooms. Behind you is a room containing your current story—everything that brought you here. Ahead is a room holding your next chapter—unknown but calling. This game helps you cross.

Web-Book

NARRATIVE ALCHEMY CODEX

A Guide to Inner Transformation

You are living a story you did not write. Welcome to the Codex of Narrative Alchemy, a living grimoire for conscious authorship where mythology meets psychology, ancient wisdom collides with postmodern practice, and the stories shaping your life become raw material for transformation. Not a book to read, but a practice to embody. Whether you see this as magic or method, the transformation is real.

The stories running your life—about love, money, success, belonging—most of them you didn’t choose. They chose you. Narrative Alchemy teaches you to see those inherited scripts clearly, test them ruthlessly, and rewrite them toward your Authentic Purpose. This is where Jungian depth work meets post-modern magical practice. Where ancient alchemical cycles meet contemporary coaching methodology. Where you stop being a character in someone else’s story and become the author of your own.

What this is

A living grimoire for conscious authorship. Not a book to consume, but a practice to test. You’ll find methods drawn from depth psychology, chaos magic, and narrative coaching. All designed to work whether you see them as literal magic or powerful metaphor. Everything mythic becomes practical. Every abstract concept gets a concrete exercise. Every teaching includes something you can do today.

 

And this grimoire grows. When you discover something that works, you share it in circle. When enough people test a practice and refine it, it becomes part of the methodology. This isn’t one person’s system handed down like scripture, it’s collective intelligence built in the laboratory of lived experience. Individual breakthroughs become shared tools. Personal transformation becomes community wisdom.

Applied Narrative Alchemy

Most transformation work is either too mystical to be practical or too practical to be transformative. Narrative Alchemy synthesizes four streams—depth psychology, chaos magic, narrative coaching, self-development—into a secular sacred practice that honors both the mysterious and the measurable.

Narrative Alchemy

Professional methodology for forward-looking transformation. You’re not broken and don’t need fixing, you need agency, design thinking, and conscious authorship of your next chapter. This stream provides the ethical container and the future-focused orientation.

Chaos Magic

Post-modern techniques where belief is a tool, not a dogma. Results matter more than metaphysics. If a practice works, use it. If it doesn’t, discard it. This stream provides permission to experiment freely and borrow from any tradition without allegiance to any orthodoxy.

Depth Psychology

Jungian frameworks for engaging the unconscious through archetypes, shadow work, and active imagination. The psyche speaks in symbol and story. This stream provides the map for navigating the imaginal realm where transformation actually happens.

Self-Development

Eclectic, accessible practices drawn from everywhere from Stoicism to systems thinking, habit design to embodiment work. This stream keeps the work grounded in lived experience, ensuring every mystical concept has a practical application you can test today.

I

Orientation

Start here.

What Narrative Alchemy is, the principles it rests on, and how story links to Authentic Purpose—the pull beneath your surface decisions.

📖 Chapter 1: What Is Narrative Alchemy?

📖 Chapter 2: First Principles 

📖 Chapter 3: Authentic Purpose and Story 

II

The Alchemical Cycle

The four stages of transformation, applied to the story you’re living. From seeing inherited scripts to embodied sovereignty.

📖 Chapter 4: Nigredo – Seeing the Script 

→ Chapter 5: Albedo – Cleansing the Lens (coming soon)

→ Chapter 6: Citrinitas – Igniting Agency

→ Chapter 7: Rubedo – Embodiment (coming soon)

III

Tools of the Magician

Story is technology. These are the methods for wielding it. Learn them, test them, then forge your own practice.

→ Chapter 8: Storycraft Methods (coming soon)

→ Chapter 9: Journaling as Laboratory (coming soon)

→ Chapter 10: Rituals and Hyper-Sigils (coming soon)

→ Chapter 11: Dialogue and Circle (coming soon)

→ Chapter 12: Your Personal Praxis (coming soon)

IV

The Movement

Personal transformation becomes collective change. Soulcruzer as a hearth for a community of sovereign storytellers.

→ Chapter 13: Soulcruzer as Hearth (coming soon)

→ Chapter 14: Change Your Story, Change Your World (coming soon)

→ Chapter 15: Wayfinding Appendix (coming soon)

Working the Codex

This isn’t a book to read passively. It’s a grimoire to work with. Each chapter is structured to move you from insight to action because transformation happens in practice, not theory.

⚡ Signal & Why it matters

One line that names what this chapter unlocks, plus the real stakes—what changes in your actual life when you work with this material.

💡 Core Idea & Practice

The principle is explained clearly, stripped of mystification. Then there is one concrete exercise you can test immediately, either in your journal, in conversation, or in how you move through your day.

🔥 Prompts & Invitation

Five questions to explore alone or in circle. Then a clear next step—because every chapter should shift something in how you see yourself or the world.

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