in the moment she answered
formless in-between states of grief
shadows dancing underneath her eyes
she did not recognise me
darkness
dull and desperate
before the beginning
began
i caught myself staring like a
chimp caught humping another
chimp, never would i be better
imitating the ways of the master not to
create but to destroy the beat of her heart
and then it made sense to me
i stood witlessly fumbling the
key to endless happiness she
sat on the bed with her hands
clenched, ‘i will help you hold
the hatred, spread it over the
fields black and foul and what
will you do for me?’ i will give
you another life layered in gauze
and honey, burning in teargas
i will save you from the vapour
and dust of sad dreams
Friday soon rolls around. I actually have to put on a tie today, which is not my normal Friday (if there is such a thing). The machine needs me and so I answer the call. Last night was painful, but i think the loop may have passed now – i’m on the other side – next step sense checking and integration into my life. I have some more stuff rolling out on Twitter today (as always) so hook up with me there if you haven’t already done so (and please don’t say you don’t understand Twitter, which is what I hear from a lot of people in my demographic – you are smarter than that, figure it out…use your imagination and make it whatever it is you want it to be…how did I get on this soapbox?)
Before I go, here’s a Friday playlist for you (i haven’t done one of these for a while (there’s only so much time in a day (even if you don’t sleep much like me))).
peace and love to you,
clay
i was in the desert once
lost in meditation
i was trying to get to
grips with being a
plaything for the gods
i met some souls sitting
around a fire in the open night
they were contemplating
Good and Evil
Lust and Sorrow
all of my incantations
and prayers ignored
by the old gods, i consigned
myself to the enigma of the
meek and their gospel of love
until i stumbled upon a
switch labeled universe
next to a button marked
“Boom”
in a moment of weakness
i pressed the button
And just like that, we were back on track. Today on #Audiomo Day 5, I managed to get MR Mike Trussell on the line. We cover a lot of ground in a short space or time.
Hey up! #Audiomo Day 4. I forgot that people are busy. My challenge to speak to 30 different people for #audiomo this year has hit a snag and it’s only day number 4. But I’m a person, so if I talk to myself, does that still count? lol.
If you fancy a chat, let me know, help me reach my #audiomo goal!
#Audiomo Day 1. I love this time of the year when the Audiomo community comes together for the month of June to make and share audio. I thought I’d add something extra to the 30-day challenge this year and that is to have 30 conversations with 30 different people for my #Audiomo posts this year.
First up is my friend Sara Beth Hunt, novelist and podcaster.