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September 20, 2017

Staring into the void and getting nothing back

This is what we’re up against fellow blogging revolutionaries: This has to stop! We have to resort to guerrilla tactics and use the big boy’s strength against them! Bloggers unite. What if you looked inside and found nothing there? What then? That’s what I feel sometimes when I’m staring into...

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September 19, 2017

I’m trying to be all Zen, but it’s not working

“If you’re not talking large numbers, what’s the point.” – paraphrasing Jay-z I think I may have made the damn near perfect cup of coffee this morning. Morning thoughts | #coffeetime #bw #photo A post shared by Clay Lowe (@soulcruzer) on Sep 18, 2017 at 9:32pm PDT I love Hunter...

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September 18, 2017

Do I dare disturb the universe?

[perfectpullquote align=”full” cite=”” link=”” color=”” class=”” size=””]Everyone gets everything he wants. I wanted a mission. And for my sins, they gave me one. Brought it up to me like room service.;[/perfectpullquote] If you’re into your war films, you’ll recognised that from the opening sequence of Apocalypse Now.  Martin Sheen, who...

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September 17, 2017

Some would call that being jaded

My day happened in fragments.  I woke up with this question on my mind: What dream am I chasing now? One of the problems I’ve had over the past couple of years is trying to force myself to stay excited about the things that used to get me fired up...

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September 16, 2017

Our choices are half chance

I looked on my Goodreads app.  I have 54 books in currently-reading status! My reading goal this year is 100 books.  I’m on 19. I read according to mood or what I want to explore on any given day.  Currently I’m bouncing between the Olson biography and his Selected Poems...

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September 15, 2017

Movement on my mind

The more you move the better you feel. One of my intentions this year was to move more. I started off well, as you tend to do, but as T.S. Eliot wrote: Between the idea And the reality Between the motion And the act Falls the Shadow Now it’s time...

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September 14, 2017

Are you feeling ok?

I can’t believe how excited I get about a book. I found a package on the stairs that had this in it: I could feel my face light up like a little school boy with a new toy. And of course I was suppose to be doing something else, but...

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September 13, 2017

Completely changed my worldview

Books are a habit worse than heroine for me. I can’t get enough of them. I read the preface of the Allen Ginsberg Journals this morning. I have yet to finish the Olson book, but I couldn’t help taking a peek inside the Journals. Am I on a quest to...

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September 12, 2017

I am doomed

I’ve been reading a lot of poetry over the past few months…Rimbaud, Robbins, Kaur, Broder, Addonizio, Bonta, Olson, Hanes, among others… what I am beginning to realise but have probably always known is that I like the weird and wonderful, stuff that’s offbeat and odd like neo-expressionism, real psychedelic mind...

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September 11, 2017

I had to find her the old fashioned way

5A.M Thoughts – We are all afraid to act like ourselves. I read that from a passage in Allen Ginsberg’s journal. That is so true.  Walk into a room full of people and if you’re like me, you probably size up the room before deciding how you want to show...

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September 10, 2017

With no snooze button

I’ve got that internal volcano feeling again that feeling where all the ideas in my head come bubbling to the surface all at once. Now add to that the relentlessness of time… Time past, time present, time future… Time ticking like a bomb. Time ticking, as in running out off....

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September 9, 2017

Addicted to the infinite scroll

0:514 quickly turned into 08:45. Time does fly when you’re self-absorbed…in reading and thinking, that is. A couple of hungry cats reminded me I was still among the living and that had duties to perform like feed them. I couldn’t even be bothered to feed myself despite the low rumble...

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September 8, 2017

Too much geekery going on here

Feet touched the ground at 05:47. I know you’re not supposed to but I got sucked into social media first thing this morning. Linkedin specifically. Gary Vaynerchuk had a post up, 5 Best Tips for Salespeople. I read it and watched the accompanying 10 minute video. It was worth the...

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September 7, 2017

Every day without hope

Inspired by Jason_Cobb of Onionbagblog I decided it was high time to get back into the blogging game and come back strong with running day diary style posts. I fired up the Day One app. It’s perfect for this sort of thing. And hey, when I’m dead and buried, they...

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August 14, 2017

Some things change; some things stay the same

I’ve decided to blow up my blog theme again and try something new. Actually I’ve had this theme for a while, just never used it. I’m undecided as to whether to do full blog post on the page format or some variation of the grid style blog or the read...

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May 6, 2017

another season

As a child I never saw a vision of what I wanted to be, or if I did it was a fleeting glimpse. The poets told me what I could be, my teachers told me what I should be, now I only know what I don’t want to be. I...

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May 6, 2017

It was never a question of black and white

My upper body (chest and triceps) are aching. I finally made it back to gym on Thursday after a few weeks of no weights. I’m back in the iron game. Yesterday I was back at WH. Very productive day as ploughed through all of last year’s training, which gave me...

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